Are you pissed off? I'm pissed off. Vent Thread.

[sin]

How is an island kingdom in the Persian Gulf making you feel down?

[r00]

lol  wit still exists at PI!

[luna]

[Aaron]

I loled.


I sent him another email he responded. woohoo.



I'm fucking bored. Like in general. Not just right now. But at work, and here at home to... I think I may just go to bed early (ya like that will ever happen.) And no matter how tired I am right before bed, the moment I get into bed, my brain kicks into overdrive.

[Static]

I loled.


I sent him another email he responded. woohoo.



I'm fucking bored. Like in general. Not just right now. But at work, and here at home to... I think I may just go to bed early (ya like that will ever happen.) And no matter how tired I am right before bed, the moment I get into bed, my brain kicks into overdrive.

No offence mate, but are you sure it's sensible moving in with him?   He doesn't sound like the most reliable of chaps.

[Aaron]

Huh. Kinda. He has always sucked at communication. I sent another and he replied really fast like, he also said he didn't see the other email I sent. Not sure how he didn't see it... But ya, I think it will work out. Or at lest I hope so...

[TPD]

this protest thing is getting old.
so is this police-state.
this isn't going to end well.
both sides of the conflict are going thru major failmode right now.

[Aaron]

I woke up 7 minutes before I had to be to work. I got to work 25 minutes late. And the odd thing, I don't remember my alarm going off at all... I know I set it. But nada.

My boss laughed so at lest she wasn't pissed about it. The department is stupidly understaffed there is two full time people (the boss and I.) A part-time person, and an overnight person that is in the department once or twice a week... And they wonder why it looks like shit most all the time.

[luna]

I've been know to turn my alarm off in my sleep before it even gets to the time it's supposes to go at

[Aaron]

Huh. Maybe I turned it off with out knowing? Either way, nothing wakes me up faster then the opens eyes looks at clock "OH SHIT LATE FOR WORK!" rush to get out the door.

[sin]

Adventures in dating someone with a disparate net worth...

6 month anniversary with Ms. sin, and as we hardly ever go out due to my anxiety issues, we decided to at least go out to eat, because, you know, that's what normal people do.  I popped a couple Xanax and agreed.  She suggested a number of restaurants and I had to remind her "the nicest restaurant I've ever been in is a Denny's.  You're going to have to choose.  I know nothing about restaurants."  She picked one from the list she gave me and specifically said it was the cheapest and most laid back, so I would be most comfortable there ("You can wear jeans!" she assured me).

We get seated, and immediately I realize that, although I had dressed up a LITTLE bit (for me), I was still rather under-dressed for the establishment.  Bad sign.  We get our menus and I realize that there are no prices listed.  VERY bad sign.

Dinner went fine, we had fun (although I thought my steak was a bit overdone [more on that later]), the check came and I almost shit my pants.

I know such an amount of money is not a big deal for some people, but like I had said before, the nicest restaurant I've ever been in is a fucking Denny's.  2 people, 120 fucking dollars.  I nearly choked on my beer, which I was just now realizing was $9, and all thoughts of being a gentleman and gallantly picking up the check vanished instantly.  I'm not cheap, I literally DID NOT HAVE THE MONEY to pay such a bill.  My wounded pride demanded that I pick up the tip, which was every last cent in cash I was carrying at the time (because, in my poor existence, I have never in my life needed more than $25 at a single time, except to buy drugs).  The idea that I had just paid $17 for an overdone steak (not the meal, JUST the steak) almost made me want to puke.  I'm pretty sure I kept it together pretty well though.  No meltdowns in the restaurant.  She of course was cool and confident and assured me it was no big deal, which made me feel like absolute fucking garbage.

I have never been wealthy, and since I moved out of my parents', I have been, statistically, pretty fucking poor, but last night was the first time in my life that I have ever FELT poor.  I don't blame her at all, she really wanted to do something nice for me, but god damn, this shit has been bothering me all night.

[r00]

I completely understand where you are coming from.  That would have pissed me off too and I find it a discourteous act. (I would say selfish, but I don't know the person and understand she's your girlfriend.)

If she could tell it upset you and you couldn't really afford it, did she at least offer to pay for some of it after the fact?

[sin]

I completely understand where you are coming from.  That would have pissed me off too and I find it a discourteous act. (I would say selfish, but I don't know the person and understand she's your girlfriend.)

If she could tell it upset you and you couldn't really afford it, did she at least offer to pay for some of it after the fact?

Maybe I wasn't clear; she payed for ALL OF IT (outside of the tip), which was always her intention.  THAT'S why I felt like shit.  I asked her to never let my dad find out that I had allowed a woman to drop that kind of cash on me, because he would probably punch me in the face if he ever found out.

She comes from money, and despite the fact that we don't live together or anything, money has been something of a contentious issue with us, as she lives off an inheritance, and sometimes I find myself resenting her cavalier attitude toward spending money when I've been pinching pennies for so long.

[r00]

ooooooooooooooh  ok.  Forget everything I said then.  8)

[sin]

Yeah, no worries.  "saying it out loud" (or you know, typing) makes it seem kind of trite.  I can be a bit petty sometimes.  Sorry for blogging directly onto PI. 

The fact that her buying me an expensive steak dinner is my biggest bitch about our relationship probably says something.